And here’s a repost that was originally written May 13, 2017. It appears as/is.
I have loved Judy Collins’ beautiful music since I was about 18 years old. She’s recorded so many beautiful songs over the years and inspired others as well. Although I knew she’d had trouble with alcohol and eating disorders, I didn’t know the extent of her problems until I picked up her latest book, Cravings: How I Conquered Food.
Published on February 28, 2017, Cravings offers readers insight into what may have caused Judy Collins’ issues with booze and food. Collins’ theories may also be helpful to other readers. The book is also about Judy Collins’ life, so if you read it, it helps to also be interested in her life story. I suspect a lot of younger people may not be fans of Judy Collins’ music, although I think they should be. I should also mention that this is the first book I’ve read by Judy Collins, so I wasn’t perturbed to read about her life. Others who have read her earlier memoirs might feel like parts of this book are reruns.
Collins writes that when she was growing up, she loved all things made of flour, sugar, wheat, and corn. She was addicted to sugar and would eat sweet things constantly. That sugar obsession later turned to unsightly pounds and a neverending compulsion to eat more. She eventually went on to become bulimic and would binge and purge to the point of developing a vocal cord hemangioma. It almost destroyed her voice.
As she got older, Collins took up drinking and smoking. She became an alcoholic and, for many years, would even drink heavily before and after taking the stage. Although she indulged in self-destructive behavior, Collins somehow knew that what she was doing was dangerous. She sought help from doctors, most of whom told her she didn’t have a problem.
Eventually, Collins realized that there was a link between her cravings for sugar, flour, wheat, and corn and her addiction to alcohol. She eliminated the problem foods from her diet and adopted what looks to me to be a paleo diet. She says now her weight is stable and she know longer has such intense cravings for unhealthy foods or booze. She also credits spending time in support groups like Alcoholics Anonymous and employing the Grey Sheet Diet Plan for helping her to stop the insanity.
Aside from explaining her secrets to eating and drinking success, Collins writes about her son, Clark Taylor, who sadly died after committing suicide. Collins herself attempted suicide, although she doesn’t delve too much into her experiences with suicidal ideation. Before he passed, Clark fathered Judy Collins’ only grandchild, Hollis, who is now herself a mother. I enjoyed reading about Judy’s family and can tell that she loves them very much. She writes that not a day goes by that she doesn’t think about and miss her son.
I also enjoyed reading about Collins’ musical training. Originally, she was trained as a pianist and she studied great and challenging classical works. I never knew Judy Collins was once being groomed for the classical music world. As she became a teenager, she was lured into folk music. She picked up a guitar, learned how to play, and began to sing. I was astonished to read that she once had a very limited vocal range. Work with an excellent voice teacher eventually stretched her range to about three octaves, quite respectable for a singer. I have always liked her voice for its ethereal quality. I think my own style is kind of like hers.
Anyway… I thought Cravings was well-written and engaging. It didn’t take forever to finish. Because I haven’t read Collins’ other books, the material and new for me. It’s also relevant for me personally on many levels. I liked that she drew in interesting examples from history to backup her theories about diet, drinking, and health. I learned something new in those passages. And, given that Judy was born in 1939 and is still making albums and writing books, I figure she must be doing something right. I recommend her book to those who are thinking about reading it.
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Here’s another reposted book review from the original Overeducated Housewife blog. This one was written in July 2017 and appears as/is. I had completely forgotten about this book, but it’s definitely one that belongs on my blog.
Sad story plus wretched writing equals missed opportunities…
Ever since I started reading it, I have been itching to write my review of Social Taboo: A Male Victim of Domestic Violence Speaks. I finally finished reading Richard Cassalata’s 2016 book about twenty minutes ago after struggling with it and thinking it would never end. I didn’t realize it when I started reading this book, but Social Taboo is 578 painful pages in length. I would guess at least 150 of those pages could have been omitted. Add in the fact that Mr. Cassalata apparently never had this book edited or even read by a literate friend before he published it, and you have a recipe for a former English major’s nightmare.
As you might guess from this book’s title, Social Taboo is a non-fiction account of a man’s experience with an abusive woman. The author, who refers to himself as Rick, writes that in early January 2011, he had been looking online for a relationship with a woman. Rick is a divorced father of three boys, and as of 2016, he lives in Arizona. He has not had much luck with online personal ads. Evidently, many of the responses he gets are porn solicitations.
One night, Rick gets an email from an attractive woman named Amy. Amy lives in Eloy, which is evidently a crime infested, yet very rural, area. She’s a teacher in her mid to late 30s at the time, having earned teaching certifications in Ohio and Arizona. She invites Rick over and asks him to bring with him a bottle of Grey Goose vodka.
Although Rick is not much of a drinker, he complies with Amy’s request and drives out to Eloy. He and Amy hit it off immediately, although Rick is slightly alarmed when Amy pours herself a generous measure of vodka mixed with cranberry juice. Although he says nothing to her at the time, it soon becomes apparent that Amy has a serious drinking problem.
Rick, who is in the midst of earning his teaching credentials, finds that he and Amy are able to talk shop. However, besides talking about their work, Amy also talks about her past relationships. If you know anything about women with cluster B personality disorders, you know that there are already a couple of red flags popping up during this couple’s first meeting.
Rick describes Amy as witty, charming, sweet, friendly, and very attractive. He writes that they “clicked” from the get go. And while it may not be the smartest thing for him to have done, during that first date, Rick and Amy are consummating their brand new relationship between the sheets on Amy’s bed. Unfortunately, Amy neglects to tell Rick that she has contracted oral herpes, which Rick incorrectly identifies as a sexually transmitted disease. Yes, it can be transmitted sexually, but what Rick is referring to is the same virus that causes cold sores. In truth, most people have been exposed to the virus that causes oral herpes by the time they are adults.
Things move quickly, as they often do in relationships with women who have cluster B personality disorders. Pretty soon, Rick and Amy are inseparable. Rick gets approval to work with Amy– she actually becomes his supervisor as he’s picking up training hours at Amy’s school. Yet another red flag is raised, but Rick is apparently oblivious to it. Soon, they’re talking about marriage and it’s not long before Rick moves in to Amy’s home. When he’s living with her, Rick discovers that Amy’s drinking problem is a lot more serious than he’d first realized. Aside from that, she is extremely possessive and resents it when Rick plays racquetball with his buddies on Saturday mornings. He comes back from the court to find Amy completely obliterated after she’s consumed way too much Grey Goose vodka.
Rick soon finds himself deeply entrenched in his relationship with Amy, who seems to be having a hard time letting go of her ex husband, Jim. She claims that they need to see each other because they are filing their taxes. Rick isn’t happy about Amy’s continued visits with her ex, but he tolerates it until it becomes clear that Amy is doing a lot more than discussing taxes with Jim. But when Rick confronts Amy, she goes batshit crazy. It’s not long before Amy enlists local law enforcement in her bid to control Rick. She even talks him into handing over his paychecks to her. Again… a classic red flag of an abuser.
It turns out that Amy is also kinky. She has a collection of sex toys and wants Rick to use them on her and be her “Dom”, that is, sexual dominant. She uses sex to make up with Rick after their epic fights. All I can say is that Amy must have been one hell of a lover. Rick falls for her tricks over and over again, just like Charlie Brown does when Lucy Van Pelt offers to hold the football for him. I don’t actually have anything against kink. However, it’s pretty clear that Amy uses kink as a means to control her men.
Throughout the book, Rick refers to the interesting array of jobs he’s held in the helping profession. He claims to have been a law enforcement officer, a social worker, and a teacher, both at the college and school levels. However, Rick doesn’t really give readers a full accounting of his academic pedigree. This was one of my many complaints about Social Taboo. As I was reading Rick’s story, he would mention his academic background, but in vague terms. I myself have master’s degrees in social work and public health, so he caught my attention when he wrote about his sociology degree, but then referred to himself as a “former social worker”.
First off, social work and sociology are not the same thing. Secondly, while Rick may have worked for child protective services at one point, that would not make him a social worker. Social work is not synonymous with child welfare work. Moreover, having earned my degree in social work, I know what goes into getting that education. I was perplexed by Rick’s vast array of careers. He’s supposedly only 35 years old at one point in this book. It takes time and money to become a qualified social worker or teacher, particularly at the college level. And yet, Rick has apparently been a social worker, a teacher, a professor, and a law enforcement officer. I question how much experience he would have had in those fields and how he managed to earn the appropriate credentials. I’m not saying he’s outright lying, but it would have been helpful if he had explained that a bit more.
My next complaint about this book is that it is way too long. I see an earlier paperback version of this book comes in at over 700 pages. This edition, which has a different title, is almost 600 pages. A lot of those pages should have been edited out because much of it is repetitive minutiae. At one point in the book, I was sure I had to be at least halfway through it. I was dismayed to see I had only read about 25%. I eventually found myself skimming because it was very repetitive and taking much too long to finish.
And finally, my biggest complaint about this book is the shitty writing. Cassalata has a rather conversational style that could be engaging if not for all of the typographical errors, awkward sentence constructions, dangling participles, and wrong word choices. Seriously, there were some errors that were almost laughable. For the sake of this review, I’m going to find a few of the more memorable ones.
“After leaving my house, I purchased a big cup of coffee at a nearby convince store.”
“They’re just did not seem to be a happy medium in any decision concerning her in weeks.”
“Ferrous, I walked out of the classroom without acknowledging Amy’s existence.”
“I fucking hate you for that… you sun of a bitch!”
“Since you are freeloading off me and living in my house you will respect me you sorry sun of a bitch.”
“Arriving home, Amy was gone and it was a welcome relief.”
“Noticing the sun setting we walked out of the restaurant and Amy held my hand out the door.”
The book is absolutely saturated with mistakes like the ones I’ve posted. When you have to get through 600 pages, it becomes very tiresome to run across so many errors. More than once, I contemplated giving up on the book. I also had to fight the urge to rant about it before I managed to finish. Imagine… this man, like his psycho ex, Amy, are teachers. No wonder so many people homeschool.
Don’t get me wrong. I think it’s good that Mr. Cassalata was willing to share his story. I wish more male victims of relationship abuse would speak out; that way, people like Bill’s ex wife might brought to justice for the havoc they wreak. I just think that if you’re going to go to the trouble of writing a book about your experiences, particularly the very personal experiences the author writes of, you should make sure the writing is of good quality. It’s asking a lot to ask readers to wade through almost 600 pages of explicit writing about abuse. The least that author could do is make the writing worth the effort and as easy as possible for the reader– particularly given that readers often have paid for the book. I see Cassalata’s paperback version is selling for about $25. I would be pissed if I’d spent $25 on this book as it’s written.
Anyway, make no mistake about it. Rick Cassalata got himself entangled with a psycho. I empathize with him. A lot of what he wrote about Amy is eerily similar to stories I’ve heard about Bill’s ex wife, right down to the weird sex, financial abuse, and irrational rages. Bill was fortunate in that his ex wife had a fear of government interference, so she never called the police on him. However, she did do a lot of the other things Amy did… and, oddly enough, Bill’s ex used to live in Arizona. I hope things are better for Rick now. I see at the end of his book, he’s got links to men’s rights organizations. I, personally, have no issue with that, but I would imagine that if a lot of women read this book, they might.
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I wrote this post in the fall of 2018. It was “born” out of a comment I got from someone who was irritated about my tendency to “trash” my husband’s ex wife. This person, who wasn’t someone who had been reading the blog for a long time, thought I was just a bitter second wife. I’m pretty sure I know who the “anonymous” commenter was, as she had been sending me private messages about moving to Germany. In those discussions, she told me she was a “first wife” of someone. I suspect that she thought I was attacking all first wives, when I was really just commenting about my situation with Bill, and how I felt about HIS ex wife. Bill’s ex wife is a special kind of terrible. And no, I certainly don’t think ALL exes are like her, and thank GOD for that!
Anyway, the offended person left me a comment telling me how “inappropriate”, “TMI”, and “negative” she felt my blog is, and advised me to “let it go”, or keep my negative posts about Ex private. She said I came off as “bitter, petty, and snotty”. I was kind of scratching my head at those comments. Was she really expecting me to take her unsolicited advice, especially when they were delivered in an insulting way? I mean, maybe I would if she was a friend of mine, but she was a random person on the Internet who had left me a comment with the moniker “Wondering Why”.
Maybe I would have considered taking her suggestion if people were paying me to write this blog… but as it stands right now, I don’t even take tips for this space. I only recently monetized this blog as an experiment. I may decide to demonetize it, since I don’t like looking at ads any more than anyone else does. But the travel blog is monetized– so far it’s raked in a big fat $1.70. I get far fewer hits on the travel blog, so I would like to see if this blog does better, and if so, how much better.
This post from November 2018 is left “as/is”. It came in the wake of a post I had written comparing Ex to “Wile E. Coyote”. I was inspired to write the coyote post after Bill told me about things his daughter had told him about growing up with Ex and some of the really fucked up shit she did (and continues to do). My husband’s former wife is legitimately toxic and crazy, and it was upsetting to hear about things she did to her own children. So I processed those feelings by writing about them in an admittedly “negative”, “personal”, and “snarky” post comparing Ex to a feckless cartoon character whose harebrained schemes never work out for the best.
Like Wile E. Coyote, Ex usually assumes she knows better… and in fact, she often seems to think she knows all. But the end result of a lot of her big ideas usually turn out to be disastrous, and they have ripple effects that harm innocent people– even people like me, who get upset at hearing about them and write blog posts that piss off clueless readers. I get rude comments, then feel compelled to write even more. 😉 See? More ripple effects!
I should mention that at the time, I was feeling especially stressed out, because we were about to move out of our last house. I knew ex landlady drama was coming, as well as the sheer pain in the ass of moving, so my mood was definitely affected. I still think there are some pearls of wisdom in this piece. I was pretty gratified that several then regular readers left comments for “Wondering Why”, advising her to move on if she didn’t like my material. I still think that’s good advice for anyone. So here goes…
About twenty years ago, I was working as a temp at the College of William & Mary’s admissions office. While I was working there, I became friendly with an older lady named Peggy, who, like me at that time, lived in Gloucester, Virginia. As I got to know Peggy, I learned that she had a daughter who had been friends with my older sister, Sarah, when they were in high school in the early 80s.
Over the few months that I worked in the admissions office at William & Mary, Peggy and I got to know each other better. The work I was doing was pretty boring. It was mostly filing and data entry on an ancient (by 1998 standards) computer. You might be surprised by what high school seniors were sending to William & Mary in 1998. William & Mary is a very prestigious school, and it receives many applications from outstanding students around the country and the world.
I don’t know if it’s still true today, but back in the late 90s, Virginia had a law that required in state publicly funded colleges to admit a certain number of students from Virginia. That meant that gaining admittance to William & Mary as an out of state or international student was extremely difficult. Consequently, not only did the admissions office receive stellar test scores, personal essays, and transcripts from hopeful students; it also received a lot of other supporting documents, all of which needed to be filed. That’s where I came into the picture.
It was really an eye opening experience to see what people sent to the admissions office in their personal quests to become members of the “Tribe”. It was insane, and created a lot of work for temping drones like me. I noticed that most of the extra stuff did nothing but add detritus to each applicant’s folder. It was pretty rare that an extra supporting document would result in an offer of admission to someone who otherwise would have been rejected. Some of it was entertaining to look at, though.
I remember one girl’s mother sent a photocopy of her out of state nursing license and a picture of a younger version of the girl standing in front of the Wren Chapel with her family. There was a supporting document from the girl’s dad, a police officer, stating that the family planned to move to Williamsburg to support their daughter in her academic endeavors. I recall that this young lady didn’t gain acceptance to William & Mary. I hope she found a school that she liked just as much. Having been rejected by my first choices when I was a high school student, I understand how rejection feels. But then, I did manage to find a great school for my purposes, so it all turned out fine in the end.
Anyway, this story comes up in the wake of yesterday’s minor drama on this blog, in which a first time commenter advised me that I need to “let it go”, regarding my husband’s ex wife. Telling somewhat to “let it go” is kind of akin to telling them to “get over it”. Personally, I think it’s an extremely rude, dismissive, and short-sighted thing to say to another person, particularly someone you don’t know. I do understand why some people think it’s constructive advice, although frankly, I think it’s futile to tell someone they need to “let it go”. Sometimes, it’s just not possible. I came to that conclusion while I was working with Peggy. She offered an analogy that I’ve not forgotten in the twenty years since we met.
I was sitting on the floor next to a giant filing cabinet and Peggy’s cubicle. I had a huge stack of essays, drawings, certificates, test scores, and the like, that I was stuffing into manila folders dedicated to each new applicant. It was mindless work that numbed my brain as it chapped my hands. Peggy helped me pass the time by telling me about her upbringing. It turned out that, like me, she was raised by an alcoholic. However, while my dad was the alcoholic in our family, in Peggy’s case, it was her mother who drank too much. Peggy’s mother was extremely abusive to her. Consequently, Peggy grew up suffering from depression and anxiety, and she had lingering feelings of hatred for her mother. There was no love between Peggy and her mom, because Peggy’s mother had repeatedly beaten her up mentally, physically, and emotionally.
I felt sad for Peggy that she had those feelings toward her mom. I may not always love the way my own mom behaves, but I do love her very much. She was the sane parent; which isn’t to say that I didn’t love my dad. I did love him, and mostly try to remember him fondly. He did have a good side. But he was often mean and abusive to me, and those memories are hard to erase. I am now kind of “saturated” when it comes to abuse from other people. I simply can’t tolerate it.
Peggy explained that as the years passed, her depression lingered, even though in 1998, she was probably in her 60s and her mother was long dead. Peggy didn’t seem depressed to me in person. In fact, she was bright, funny, friendly, and cheerful. A lot of people have described me in the same way. More than one person has told me they think I’m “bubbly”. Some people even think I’m hilarious. In person, I joke a lot and laugh and giggle. A lot of “funny” people are like that. Humor is a way to mask depression and anxiety.
In 1998, I, too, was suffering from significant clinical depression and anxiety, and at that time, it had gotten really bad. I had actually had these issues for most of my life, but in 1998, it was especially severe. That was the year I finally decided to seek professional help, and got prescription medication for the depression that had dogged me for at least ten years. I was not under a doctor’s care when I worked at William & Mary, though. At that time, I was too poor to get help, and I had no health insurance. Also, I didn’t know I was depressed and anxious. That was the way I’d always been, only it was much worse in ’98 than it was in the preceding years. That year, I thought of suicide fairly often. I still sometimes have those fleeting thoughts, but it’s not nearly like it was in those days. I’m probably more dysthymic now than anything else.
I remember Peggy explained in detail what she’d endured during her formative years at home, when she’d had no choice but to endure her mother’s constant insults, taunts, and physical abuse. She got away from her mother as soon as she was able to and married a man with whom she was not compatible. They eventually divorced, and Peggy was left alone to raise her daughter, which was very difficult for her. At the end of her story, I remember Peggy telling me that having clinical depression is a lot like trying to function with a broken arm.
If you met a person with a broken arm, would you tell them they need to “let it go” and “get over it”? Would you assume that you know what the timeline should be for them to “heal” from a physical injury? I’m sure there are cases of people who heal from broken bones very quickly. Maybe you’ve had a broken bone and bounced back in just a couple of weeks. But does that mean that someone else can heal in that same timeframe? Maybe the other person has mitigating circumstances that make healing more difficult for them. I think it’s often the same for depression and other mental health issues. Some people heal faster than others.
I have never forgotten Peggy’s comparison of clinical depression to having a broken bone. In either case, the condition is crippling and painful, especially without treatment. I was especially clued in to how astute the comparison is when I did seek medical help in 1998. It took about three months, but I finally found an effective antidepressant that literally changed my life. When I got my brain chemicals straightened out, I was amazed at how much better and more competent I felt. It really drove home to me that depression is a real illness and not just made up bullshit in my head.
For so long, I felt so guilty about who I am. I thought there was something truly “wrong” with me. When I finally took the right medication and eventually felt the way non-depressed people feel, I realized that I didn’t have to feel guilty about being depressed. Depression was, indeed, a sickness that was beyond my control. I couldn’t will myself not to be depressed. I needed help to move beyond it. In my case, potent antidepressants and counseling from an empathetic psychologist did the trick.
Now… this does not mean that a person can’t learn techniques to combat depression, and it doesn’t give a person an excuse to be a jerk to other people. However, I did finally realize that depression is real, and it will probably always be a part of my life. Being negative, grumpy, and bitter is a part of having depression. Maybe some people don’t find that side of me pleasant and they think all they need to do is tell me to “get over it” or “let it go”. I’m sure it seems that easy to them. It’s not that easy for me. I write in this blog to process those feelings instead of acting on them in a destructive manner. In other places, I try to be less negative and bitter. Some of my readers interact with me in other places and have seen that I’m generally not as “bitchy” there as I can be here. It’s because I have a place to put most of the bitchy stuff, and that’s here in this blog.
I realize that some people don’t like me or stuff I write. Fortunately, I’ve gotten to a point at which I no longer feel the need to try to please others. I do wish I were a more likable, positive, friendly, and popular person. I have accepted that I will never be those things, and that’s okay. I don’t take antidepressants now. Maybe I will again at some time, but at this point, I’d rather not. So I write blogs and publish them, and I make music. Sometimes people like my efforts, though I think more people are either indifferent or think they can fix my problems by telling me to “let it go”. My own mother has, more than once, told me to “let it go”. I actually love my mom and I haven’t been able to take her advice. What makes you think you’ll be more successful at giving me that advice than she’s been? And why does it even matter to you if I’m “inappropriate” or share too much information? It’s not your life, is it? You don’t have to read this stuff.
I suppose I could make this blog private and I have openly suggested doing that before. However, I have had several people tell me that they enjoy reading my blog. So I leave it public for them and anyone else who understands. If you don’t understand, and you find me unpleasant, I won’t be upset if you move on to another place on the web. You’re certainly not the first one to find me unpleasant. But please don’t glibly tell me to “get over it” or “let it go”. That is a very dismissive thing to say to another person and it’s not right to discount other people’s feelings, particularly when you are a guest in their space.
As for my husband’s ex wife, I’m sure it would be amazing if I could simply “let it go” that she did her best to destroy my husband’s happiness, career, and connections to people who love him. I wish I were that mature and magnanimous. I’m not there yet, and I don’t think I will ever be there. How do you forgive someone who sexually assaulted the love of your life and then denied him access to his children while spreading vicious lies to his parents about the kind of person he is? I’m sure if it had happened to me, my husband would be equally angry. So, you’ll have to excuse me for not “letting it go” where she’s concerned. It will probably take a much longer time than I have left in life to completely get over it. But with every day, there’s fresh hope.
I woke up to the news that TLC is finally canceling the Duggars. That means no more Counting On. No more sneaky attempts by Jim Bob and his wife, Michelle, to get on camera and hijack what was supposed to be a reality show about his adult children who haven’t committed crimes. No more babies being born on toilets. No more contrived honeymoons to foreign countries, where the whole storyline centers around how “different” the Duggars are. No more over the top baby gender reveals. It’s about time.
To be honest, the Duggars have been on TV for an astonishingly long time… and it’s high time they hightailed it off into the sunset. Even if Josh Duggar wasn’t a notorious sex pest, the Duggar time in the spotlight of reality TV should have been over some time ago. I quit watching their show several years ago, not necessarily because of Josh, but because it had become really boring. It was a lot of lathering, rinsing, and repeating. I’m sure a lot of the people on the show– Boob’s children and their spouses– who evidently weren’t even being paid for their work– will be glad to be able to do their own things off camera.
I read that Josh’s child pornography trial has also been postponed. It was supposed to begin on July 6th, but now it’s slated to start in late November. I guess that will be enough time for him to be around to see his seventh child being born. With any luck, he won’t have time to impregnate Anna again before he goes to trial and likely ends up in prison. Another baby is the last thing Anna would need. But I would not put it past Josh to try to make one more baby… Someone as narcissistic as he is no doubt thinks the world needs more of his progeny running around.
I’m sure Jim Boob is now thinking of new ways to be rich and famous, as he looks for experts to help his son beat his child porn charges. Even if Josh doesn’t go to prison– and I think he will, but I’ve learned never to “count on” what seems obvious– I suspect his life may be pretty much over. His reputation is ruined. There are some people in the fundie Christian world who might manage to overlook his past, but a whole lot of other people will never be able to forgive and forget what he’s been accused of doing, even in the highly unlikely event that he’s proven innocent.
I feel badly for Josh’s kids. Those poor souls never had a choice. It won’t be easy for them, growing up in the fundie Christian cult with their father locked up in prison. They will always be associated with him, no matter what. They probably love their dad, despite what he’s allegedly done and what he’s openly admitted to doing.
I think this is something that a lot of people don’t think about in these situations… that predators may be the worst sorts of people, but there’s usually someone out there who loves them anyway. I’m sure Josh’s mother loves him. It looks like Jim Bob does, too. And he has a wife who is standing by him, and all those kids… The rest of the world may think he’s just the lowest form of turd, but there are people in his life who don’t see him the way others do. And those people are going to suffer for this. They’ll probably suffer more than Josh will. Josh doesn’t seem to be taking this very seriously. See the above pic for evidence.
I guess this Duggar situation is one reason why I’m not so tough on the Plath family, another large family that has been profiled on TLC. I mentioned the Plaths on Facebook yesterday, and someone mentioned how “cruel” the parents are to their kids. Honestly, I watched all of the episodes over the past couple of days. I didn’t come away with that much disdain for Kim and Barry Plath. I mean, sure, I don’t agree with their parenting decisions. I think Kim seems a bit closed off emotionally. Barry is a bit smarmy. But I don’t see them nearly as controlling or egregiously offensive as the Duggars often are. And at least Kim has an excuse. She grew up with the chaos of an alcoholic single mom and later lost a child to a terrible accident.
In one episode, Kim Plath mentioned that as a child of an alcoholic, she’d learned to “manage her emotions”. I know what she writes of, although I wasn’t very successful at that myself. She also mentioned being a partier in college, driving drunk and, by the grace of God, not getting in any accidents. I think it’s possible that if she hadn’t quit drinking, she would have ended up like her mother. Many children of alcoholics become alcoholics, marry them, or turn into control freaks. I’ve also witnessed in my own family people trading alcohol for something else. In Kim’s case, maybe it was religion. I have a cousin who quit drinking and turned into a gun toting, right-wing, Christian zealot. I can barely stand to talk to him anymore, and he used to be one of my favorite relatives. He’s become so smug and self-righteous. I’ll bet he’d love a flag like the one pictured below.
I watched the Plaths over the past couple of days. Unlike a lot of viewers, I feel like I saw both sides of the situation. Most of the kids were complaining about how tough the parents were on them, not educating them and preparing them for the world. But from what I see, the kids are doing quite well. Not a single one of them is a skid row drunk or drug addict. They all appear to be employed beyond the TLC show, launching their own lives as they see fit, and not being forced to work for the family business, as the Duggar children seem to be. Once they become 18, they are encouraged to get out and live life. I think that’s healthier than what we see with the Duggars, with all the adult kids living close by, often in properties owned by Jim Bob. Those who buck the system get ostracized by Boob. In the Plath family, it looks like the children are deciding to go “no contact”. Also… Boob protects his sex pest son, Josh, but doesn’t protect one of Josh’s victims, Jill. That’s way fucked up.
Now… in saying all of this, I’m not trying to be a Plath booster. Again– I see issues from both sides. I can understand why Kim Plath wouldn’t want her youngest children around people who seem hostile toward her. She’s still their mom, and she has to live with them. The youngest kids are not old enough to be kicked out of the house, as Micah and Moriah have been. And again, while I don’t agree with the fundie lifestyle, I do think parents should be allowed to raise their children the way they want to, as long as there’s no egregious abuse involved. And, of course, we all need to remember that if the Plaths weren’t a bit dysfunctional, they wouldn’t be on TV. If Kim Plath was an awesome mom who shits sunshine and flowers, they wouldn’t have a show. People tune in to see the strife. So we should all remember that… that dysfunction and apparent “cruelty” is what keeps people watching and the money rolling.
And I can also understand why Ethan and Olivia were hurt when they were told they couldn’t be around Ethan’s siblings unsupervised. It’s hurtful to have your parents not trust you, especially when you haven’t done anything criminal. Ethan and Olivia are just evolving into “regular” people. The Plath parents would do well to realize that this is going to happen with all of the children as they grow up. The vast majority of them are probably not going to follow the same path their parents have. That’s part of growing up– making your own choices. On another note, I also empathize with Olivia feeling disliked by Kim. I don’t think Bill’s stepmother likes me very much, even though I’m not nearly as abusive as Ex is. On the other hand, lots of people don’t like me… I figure that’s their problem.
For whatever it’s worth, Kim does seem to have a lovely relationship with her daughter, Lydia. Lydia, seems to be the type of person who goes along to get along. Personally, I think she’s my favorite on that show. I think she’s the prettiest, too. She just seems so kind and caring, as well as naturally beautiful. She’s probably the Jana Duggar of the Plath family. 😉 Seems like every large family has at least one person who is ultra responsible and mature. It’s usually the oldest who’s like that, but I think Ethan appears to be a lot less mature than his sister, Lydia, is… and she’s several years younger than Ethan is.
Anyway… I wouldn’t be broken-hearted if the Plaths have another season, although I don’t see them going on for years, as the Duggars have. I wouldn’t want them to do that. I think they’re wise enough not to try to do that, although I could be wrong.
Being on reality TV is probably a bit like gambling. It’s best to quit while you’re ahead. The Duggars should have been done years ago. They should have been done before 2015, when revelations about what a creep Josh is initially came to light. But no… Jim Bob had to keep the money, fame, and attention whoring going, and now he and Michelle and the rest of the clan are going to pay a terrible price as they likely watch their eldest trudge off to prison in cuffs and shackles. I think that’s probably the most appropriate thing to happen… but it does make me sad to see it. It makes me sad to see anyone being sent to prison, even if they absolutely deserve it. I think languishing behind bars is a terrible fate, particularly for those who have any potential whatsoever. That doesn’t mean I sympathize with Josh. It means that I know he’s a human being, despite his habit of doing terrible things. And I do empathize with all of those who love him and will be watching as he faces justice. Especially, his children... who have all of my sympathy.
Apologies in advance for this post, since I’ve written about Alan Osmond’s ego before. I’m sure some people wonder why I would write about his ego, given that he’s in his 70s now, and no longer “flavor of the month”. It’s just that I recently stumbled on a video done by his eight sons, The Osmonds 2nd Generation, and I was struck by the egotism of the lyrics in their performance… Behold!
Maybe it was a combination of finding this video, Father’s Day, and the Donny Osmond birthday video my sister sent me that has me thinking about Alan Osmond this morning. No, he’s not “flavor of the month” anymore. He hasn’t been in many years. There’s no doubt that he has musical talent, as do his sons and other family members, like Donny. Maybe that talent makes them special. Actually, I think Donny is probably the most talented of all of them, in terms of his dance ability, singing voice, and enduring cuteness even in his 60s. I genuinely enjoyed the birthday video my sister sent and was amazed by how charismatic Donny still is, many years after having been “flavor of the month”. But it seems that at least one of Donny’s brothers is still a bit conceited, and thinks of himself as more special than the rest.
As I watched the video above, listening to Alan’s sons praise their dad for realizing his “dream”, I was reminded of a rant I wrote several years ago when I ran across a YouTube video featuring Alan Osmond. He was bragging about how he was a great soldier who was too important to send to Vietnam because he was a show business performer with connections. In the video below, Alan talks about how Heavenly Father basically intervened in keeping him out of a war zone, despite his superior abilities as a soldier.
The first time I watched the above video, I got pissed off. Why? Because my father went to Vietnam and suffered from PTSD for decades after he came home. I respect Alan Osmond for doing his bit as a clerk at Fort Ord. That is a valuable service to our country. But in this video, he acts like he was Rambo and was spared the war because he had a “higher calling” in show biz. That’s a bunch of crap.
My dad was forever haunted by his memories of Vietnam. Toward the end of his life, he used to have terrible nightmares. He’d jump out of bed while still sleeping, swinging his fists at imaginary assailants. One time, he hit the wall while fighting in his sleep. He damaged his middle finger so badly that there was talk that it might have to be amputated. My dad also had a serious drinking problem that was exacerbated by being at war, where booze was handed out freely. Nowadays, boozing isn’t promoted in the military like it was in my dad’s day. My dad, who came from a long line of drunks and was raised by a violent alcoholic, was a prime candidate for developing alcoholism himself. The stress of combat, along with the easy availability of booze, was devastating for him. And that devastation had ripple effects on everyone around him, as it profoundly affected him. So, when I hear Alan Osmond acting like Vietnam was a big adventure and he was this hot shot recruit who was deemed “too valuable” for combat, it smarts a bit.
My dad really suffered… and I, as his daughter, also suffered. My dad would have been a better father, husband, friend, and person if he hadn’t been an alcoholic with PTSD. My dad has been gone now for seven years, and I’m still haunted by him. I have some really good memories of him, but I also have a lot of traumatic ones. By the time he died in 2014, I had some complicated and confusing feelings about our relationship. I see all my friends sharing pictures of their dads on Father’s Day. I shared a couple of them, too. But the truth is, as much as I loved him, I didn’t like him very much. And a lot of the reason I didn’t like him was because he was abusive to me. I can’t help but wonder if he would have been less abusive if he hadn’t gone to war and come home with PTSD. I believe he would have been an alcoholic regardless, but maybe the PTSD wouldn’t have been as bad. Maybe we could have had a better relationship. I believe he had it in him to be kinder to me than he was.
I commented on the YouTube video about how “full of himself” Alan is. Some guy named David, who claimed to be a veteran himself, took me to task and told me to STFU. I ranted about that, too, on my old blog. Just because I am not a military veteran, that doesn’t mean I can’t make a comment about Alan Osmond’s service. I am so sick and tired of people trying to shut up people who express themselves. This attitude is especially prevalent in military circles, where it’s very common for veterans to ask anyone who says anything negative about the military if they’ve ever served. Whether or not a person has served should be irrelevant. As Americans, we should be able to express opinions about the military without someone demanding to know if we’ve ever served in the military. As someone who has been in the “military world” since birth, I certainly CAN have an opinion about it. Maybe my views about the military not as informed as Bill’s or another veteran’s would be, but it’s ridiculous and short-sighted to assume that someone who is exposed to the military world, even if they don’t wear a uniform, can’t form an opinion and express it.
If veterans who tell me to STFU really cared about real freedom and what putting on that uniform means, they would cherish the rights of people to share their views, regardless of how “offensive” they may be. I have spent my whole life around veterans, and I have tremendous respect for them and what they do. BUT– I have even more respect for veterans who understand that part of serving honorably is doing so with a pure, unselfish heart. Telling someone to STFU because you don’t think they have a right to an opinion is not particularly honorable. Why should I have more respect for someone who joined the military if they don’t have enough regard for me, as a fellow freedom loving American, to let me speak my mind?
Moreover, one can serve one’s country and NOT be a military veteran. I served my country in the Peace Corps. Others serve by being public servants or even being elected officials, although some elected officials have lost sight of being of “service” in their roles. I took the very same oath that every service member or government employee takes. Like my husband, I vowed to support and uphold the Constitution. Taking that oath as a military servicemember doesn’t make someone “special”. Peace Corps Volunteers also take that oath when they swear in, even though they don’t carry weapons or go into combat.
Someone called “Unknown” left me a comment on that old post about how I shouldn’t disparage Alan for being a clerk. The person wrote:
“There are a lot of soldiers that are on the clerk side. Without them the military would not be able to survive. So you are basically saying unless you were in a combat unit you didn’t serve. There are hundreds of thousands of soldiers that are in the offices as clerks. Doesn’t make them any less important.”
And this was my admittedly irritated response to “Unknown”, who obviously didn’t read very carefully:
It looks like you may have completely missed the point of this post.
I never said and don’t believe that clerks who serve in the military are “unimportant”. On the contrary, I have basic respect for anyone who serves, including Alan Osmond.
My point is that Alan Osmond’s comments about what he did during the Vietnam War are in poor taste. He admits that he only joined the Army because he didn’t want to go on a Mormon mission. He felt that he would have more impact for his church if he stayed home and continued performing with his brothers. So he got a connection in the entertainment business to see to it that he could stay in California and be a clerk.
Alan Osmond was never in any actual danger, but he brags about how “awesome” his military skills were. I would think that if his skills were so excellent, it would have been more honorable for him to use them in support of his country. But his attitude seems to be that he was too “special” to do that; his job was to be a pop star so that he could spread Mormonism to the masses.
I am fully aware that there are many “cogs in the wheel” who serve in the military. Each and every one of them has the right to be proud of their service. However, I think bragging about being a typist during the Vietnam War era, especially as you imply that God had bigger plans for you to be a singing star, is very tacky. Moreover, there is a huge difference in simply being proud of one’s service and blatantly bragging about it on YouTube.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with members of the military who serve in non-combat roles. My husband went to Iraq, but basically had a desk job. There is also nothing wrong with people in the military who never see combat, but perform important supporting roles back home. My issue with Alan Osmond is that it’s inappropriate for him to boast about what he did during the Vietnam War era when so many people, not lucky enough to have family connections, went off to war and either died or came home permanently changed for the worse.
Watching and hearing Alan Osmond talk about how he did his bit for the Army and apparently God saved him from the jungles of Vietnam is rather infuriating. There were lots of loving, sensitive, talented young men drafted and sent off to Vietnam to fight in the war. A lot of them didn’t come back, and a lot of them were never the same when they did come back. The same has happened to plenty of people who went to Iraq and Afghanistan, though fortunately those wars have not been as personally devastating to as many people as Vietnam was. We do, at least, have more of an understanding for PTSD. There is more help available now. But it’s still such a real and scary thing that has ripple effects that extend far beyond just the person who has it. When I was a child and a teenager, and my dad would go into drunken rages and lose control of himself, I wasn’t thinking about how PTSD was making him act like that. I was internalizing the idea that he was hurting me because I was a bad person and he hated me. You see?
But our relationship wasn’t always bad. Sometimes, it was lovely, and we could share positive things, such as the dance pictured above, captured at my wedding. We also often shared our mutual love for music. In 1986, my dad bought me a live cassette collection by Bruce Springsteen. Though I don’t remember being a big Springsteen fan before I got that collection for Christmas, I used to listen to it all the time and really got into Springsteen for awhile. One of the songs on it is a very poignant rendition of “The River”. Bruce introduces the song by telling his own story about not going to Vietnam… But his story is so much more respectful than Alan Osmond’s is…
When I was practicing social work, I had a client who was a veteran. He used to tell me war stories. I always got the sense that they were probably about 90% bullshit, as was a lot of the other stuff he told me (for instance, he lied to me about having cancer). I’ve been around veterans my whole life. One thing I have noticed is that a lot of them don’t want to talk about war. Even Bill, who only spent six months in Iraq behind a desk, was affected by his time there and what he was doing. The people who actually do things that warrant receiving awards that recognize their valor don’t usually want to talk about it.
When Bill visited my parents’ home the first time, he saw that my dad, who was an Air Force officer, had earned a Distinguished Flying Cross in Vietnam. It was before Bill had ever been deployed himself. Bill was impressed by my dad’s award, but my dad didn’t want to discuss it. He said that the reason he got the award was “bogus”. I have known my share of military folks. The ones who are brave and do things to legitimately earn those awards are usually very humble about it… because a lot of times, earning those awards involves doing things that they aren’t proud of or acting heroically in situations that end up haunting them for life.
And yet, there’s Alan Osmond talking about the “trophies” he won in basic training for being a great shot and fighting with bayonets so well because he could dance. It kind of makes me want to puke. If he was really that great, the military would have sent his ass to Vietnam, right? But no… he was a typist/clerk in California for a brief time. And he brags about it. Apparently, the Lord wanted him safely at home in the United States so he could be an entertainer and influence people to join his church. What self-important drivel! And Alan didn’t appreciate being called a “draft dodger”. He even commented on the video with more bullshit about promptings from “the spirit”. He was special because as a Mormon, God only speaks to and protects him and his ilk. The rest of the guys who went to Vietnam and came back damaged or dead were not special enough to be typists in California for “the cause”.
Ever since I heard that video with Alan Osmond talking about his military service during the Vietnam era, I’ve had a less than positive opinion of him as a person. But then, when I saw the video with his sons literally singing Alan’s praises in a song ripped off from Billy Joel, I wonder if they came up with the idea to honor Alan themselves. Or were they pressured to honor their father in such an egotistical and ostentatious way? Below is another video in which Alan’s sons “honor their father”, and ask the audience to do the same:
I guess it shouldn’t surprise me that Alan’s sons “honor their father” so conspicuously. I remember the original Osmond Brothers honored their father similarly, even though in later years, they’ve said he was abusive and demanding to a fault. In this 2003 era documentary about being Osmond, the brothers talk about how their hopes and dreams were thwarted by the desires and needs of their family of origin.
We kind of see the same “father centric” dynamic in the Duggar family, as Jim Bob Duggar is repeatedly described as “someone you don’t say ‘no’ to.” Personally, I think it’s kind of egotistical for people to have so many kids. What makes a person think the world needs so many people with their DNA running around? But I know people have their reasons for having so many kids. In the Duggars’ case, it’s that they believe God is “blessing” them and not that they’re just having sex at the right time of the month and farming their babies out for their older kids to raise. At least in the Osmonds’ case, it looks like Mother Osmond raised her children.
Anyway… I’ve got no qualms about stating that Alan Osmond and his brothers clearly have talent. And, as someone who comes from a musical family, I understand the joy of sharing that gift. I’m grateful to Alan for his military service, too. He did his part, which is more than a lot of people can say. However, I would be much more impressed with him if he showed some understanding of how fortunate he was not to have had to go into combat and potentially get injured or killed, or spend the rest of his life forever traumatized by war. I’d have more respect for him if he realized how lucky his family members are that he didn’t come home in a box or permanently changed by spending time in a war zone. And while I think Alan’s sons are also very talented performers, I think they would do well to realize that their dad has a long way to go before he reaches musical genius status. Hell, I think about Sting, who has also been called “conceited” by some… but I have seen Sting perform and watched him generously share the stage with others… and even remember students he had when he was a teacher.
Phew… I feel better now. Father’s Day is always an emotional time of year for me for so many reasons.
Well, it’s time to walk the dogs and get on with the rest of the day. If you made it through this rant, thanks. And please do me a favor and don’t miss the point. It’s not that I don’t respect Alan Osmond’s military service. I just think he’s an egotistical jerk. That’s my story, and I’m stickin’ to it.
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