I so often write about people whose comments irritate and annoy me in some way. Today, I’m going to do the opposite.
I frequent a forum called Toytown Germany (TT). It’s a place for English speakers in Germany (or even just people with an interest in Germany) to hang out. I joined that forum in 2008, when we were living in Germany the first time, but before I was on Facebook. I’ve always found it a useful place to find information about living in Germany that isn’t military-centric. I also find a lot of the people there interesting, since they come from all over the world and walks of life. It’s not unlike the Recovery from Mormonism board, which I also sometimes frequent, only there’s a lot less talk of religion, which suits me fine.
A few years ago, someone on Toytown Germany started a thread entitled “What Made You Cry Today?” At this writing, the thread had swelled to 135 replies. I just added one myself this morning. Last night, I happened to glance at the thread, having not read it from the beginning. I noticed someone calling themselves manly386 responding to a call out from another poster. This was what he wrote:
On 4/9/2020, 3:02:19, Acton said:
Wow! What a sad thread.
For Manly386, who says he has only 5 months to live, this must be truly awful. Could you tell us something about yourself? I see you live in Vancouver. How did you latch on to this TT site? I’m sure we could all chip in to try and give some positive support.
Hi Acton: I’ve nothing to complain about. Lived a charmed life, blessed with loving parents, a loving girlfriend (to become my wife later), good health and a body that seemed to accept all the abuse I could heap upon it and come back in fighting form. A Policeman for 32 years, both in the RCMP and the Vancouver Police Department. on the side I dabbled in real estate and the stock market. during those times 70″s 80’s and 90’s, everything seemed to go up, couldn’t help but make money. By the 2000s I retired and got out of the market that’s when everything tanked. but I was okay. We had a son, Warren, who had pulmonary atresia, and died at 7. 8 was his favourite number, he could speak it in several languages. He died nov. 28, at 8:00pm in 1988. He was seven and a bit. I counted up the months he lived,… it was 88 months. go figure.
I was diagnosed with cancer two years ago. Probly because I was too chicken to have an annual colnonoscopy. Have Your Colonoscopy ! !
The cancer spread and now its in my bones, lungs, liver lymph, and I’ve developed colono-rectal cancer.
My Dr. whom I trust absolutely told me “Dave there’s nothing more we can do, if all goes well you have about 5 months to live, you have absolutely no immunity to anything, the chemo took care of that.” No visitors, no going out for walks etc etc. Fortunately I have a very caring wife, she does everything she used to do and all the stuff I used to do, frustrates the hell out of me ’cause I loved helping out. ah well, such is life. I have no complaints, I don’t feel cheated, I’m 75 and enjoyed my life.
I found TT by snooping around on my computer. That encouraged me to travel, I never had before, too busy. I chose to backpack through Austria, Switzerland and Germany. Bavaria was my favourite, The people were very warm and helpful. went to my first curry night in Munich. Didn’t know anyone but had a good time. Ive been to Germany three times since 2000 and three curry nights. Slept in train stations, rode the trains and busses, slept in hostels and absolutely enjoyed myself. It took me out of my Policeman’s Hard Shell and turned me back into a human.
I loved hunting, fishing camping and hiking. Playing with my son and being a family man. I truly was a fortunate man.
Dave the Barbarian
ps I’d love to make it to 100 “greenies” before the end !
“Greenies”– I think he was referring to the system of “likes” on the TT forum. At this writing, he has 39 on that post.
I decided to read his initial post, which prompted the call out:
What made me cry today? My oncologist, a man I love and trust advised me that the chemo treatments were not working and there were no further meds available. He’s given me 5 months at best. I cry for my wife, the good woman that has stood by my side for 54 years. Apparently I must leave her soon, We lost our only son, and now she is losing me. She is so trusting and good she is easily taken advantage of. I fear for her. These are chaotic times and so much is happening at once. Despite my pretense of being a Barbarian living in a tent, that was me only in hunting season. We are more than extremely well off financially and I’m trying to teach her there are sharks that will eat her alive. A police officer for 32 years, I was trained to protect, now I won’t even be able to protect the one I love most. Christ, the world is both so beautiful and cruel at the same time.
To all of you younger people in TT. Shakespeare had it right, “Gather ye rosebuds while ye may”, don’t go crazy, but enjoy the world while you are able to, It’s a beautiful place.
Dave the Barbarian.
Since the post was from about a year ago, and Dave said he had about five months, at best, I went looking to see if he had been around TT recently. I saw that his last visit was on July 19, 2020. This morning, I Googled his name and city to see if there was an obituary. Sure enough, I found one, complete with photos. His last visit to the TT forum was a week before he died.
I can see that Dave had many loved ones, family members, colleagues, and friends who are missing him. I never knew the man or even heard of him until last night, and yet I regret that I never had the chance to interact with him, even if it was just on a Toytown Germany forum. He must have been a special person, indeed. He was definitely wise. Reminds me a little of my Bill, who is downstairs making breakfast as I write this.
I hope his wife, Lucy, is doing okay.